This I believe

"The greatest glory in life is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fail." ~ Confucius

This is a quote I would never forget in my life. Bright as I seem to be, I do not achieve success all the time. I have always had a low self-esteem actually. In the past, the only thing in my eyes--is to win. I want to win in everything. To score first in class, to be a math genius, to be someone who scores 1.5 all the time. But these are merely dreams. But dreams that I strongly yearned to achieve. Of course, most of the time, I cannot achieve the high standards set for myself. This led me to very depressed state. Sometimes, it do not seem very obvious because I always try to force a smile or a laugh whenever my heart is way too low.

It is then that I thought of the quote. Sometimes, I feel that the quote is a little meaningless and lame. Sometimes, I use to remind and motivate myself to get up and strive even harder, and crazier than before. I had to use this quote to remind myself to get up all the time, because I seriously couldn't bear to see myself drop far behind others, and drop far behind my targets.

Well, lets now talk so much about the unpleasant stuff. Lately, many of my friends have commented that I am being too emotional or having a too serious face. I do not quite like the idea that I do not seem very friendly to others. Therefore, I began smiling randomly to my friends. It was so hilarious when others watch me smile gaily at them. Smiling has many uses. First of all, it can raise my spirits and 'save' me from moody times. Second smiling makes other people smile as well. Sometimes, my smile can be used to comfort others. I was really delighted to see my friends laugh and smile. But still, I couldn't help keeping that straight face in class and during lessons. It is just my way of being serious. But I hope my smile can bring more benefits, especially for people like me who are often depressed because of some minor failures. Tsk...tsk...